27/10/10

And as I clambered down the pit, I looked around me.

The skies, in cinders filled, choked my lungs as my descent met their rise.

The beast was upon me now. For so long, I had sat and waited, I had dared to dream of what would happen when it was over.

Already I could see clean sunlight behind the creature.

But the girth of this creature deceived my eyes,.

For it was a good long way away from me, and the sweet sunshine.

I looked down. My descent should near its end, and the searing heat of the charred floor would be all that greeted me.

For after this was done, only one of us would have seen the sky that day, the other locked in a room of trophies.

I thought of everything I had passed to get here, every serpent, every fiery pit.

Licking my lips, I could feel the thirst inside me build up.

It was a few days walk from here. But I promise you, I will get there.

It's just how I roll

22/10/10

It would be nice to have someone know everything about me. And then find it the most attractive thing ever at how much effort I can put.

Realistically speaking, things are back to abnormal in my world. my set of rules seems to govern a lot of things. Perhaps, when conditions are more favorable, we can give this another go. Until then, I really should get some sleep. Supposed to study tomorrow.

It's just how I roll

16/10/10

Fate is a cruel thing. I'm not even going to bother saying it, but it's annoying.

I mean, you find someone just like you, and she has to leave. :/

I guess this is going to be a toss from scratch.

I know I can say alot of things, but I must seriously admit

I will miss you. I mean, you're every person I hoped to find.

And you're leaving.

Bravo, you really know how to pick 'em.

In other news, I recently started looking at things optimistically.

After all, as crappily as my romantic situation is right now, I'm still going to get a new start next year. I guess I can look to that.

But I find this whole leaving issue tampering with my thought cycles. Perhaps I just need to find my center again.

It's just how I roll

15/10/10

I like you.

It's strange to say, and it's probably going to be my downfall. But yeah.

I don't know how to explain it.

I am a megalomanic, cynical and to some, even scary person. Yet somehow, I feel a little more optimistic around you. I like being around you. Somehow, it makes me feel that I'm not the only person in the world with a biased view of the world.

And although I am probably sure you don't entirely approve of my methods in getting what I want (that is, elaborate schemes) I think it's worth a shot. Thank god, you're never gonna read this.

And if you like me too, I'd like you even more :D

That aside, sometimes I wonder if my insecurities are in my head. That chest-tearing nervousness in approaching you, before I can talk to you, that makes me just run away.

It's just how I roll

14/10/10

Often, a big step sends a shockwave, that makes it all the harder to stand, let alone walk.

What is the reaction of the man who looks in the mirror for the first time? Who is he looking at, that has taken such an interest in him?

I took a very big step recently, coming face-to-face with a problem. And all that I've learned from it is chronology sucks. Screw the 4th dimension.

I guess I'm just down that I officially sealed the door of me getting a date to prom. In a way, I faced a problem and wouldn't let it get the better of me. It sounds childish, yes, I'm currently no better than the juniors, but it was just something that mattered, y'know?

I mean, I always pictured this amazing way to end 5 years of nothing but constant change. And as great as it is to be spending it with my bros, the thought of it turning out like IU scares me.

Only good news is I won't have any juniors to babysit.

I guess I was asking for it. I tried skipping a step ahead hoping that the laws of induction would kick in.

Even if you're not coming with me, I'm gonna win you over.

It's just how I roll

Special Occasions

Alot of times, people are asked how they would contribute to the world. Although generally, the opinions of accused psychopaths are never taken into account, I've prepared my list on how I would fix this messed up hell-hole.

A: Magnesium Cigarettes

this is going to test your chemistry a bit. Nothing else, just a pure cylinder of magnesium, to offer to smokers. You can cover it in Nicotine if you want, it will attract them.

Just sayin, it would put them off smoking for a while, if not forever.

Not guessed yet? If my chemistry is correct, Magnesium reacts violently with heat, and will most definitely give them a blast.

B: Vigilante Laws

Let's face it, folks, you wanna stop crime? you have to make THEM afraid of YOU. This is a not-so-subtle message to our good friends in the powdered wigs, too.

In any situation where a person is in danger, say a snatch thief, it should be perfectly legal for an outsider to stab him. Or run him over. Or Even be sadistic about it and chop him up. Hell, all three would be good.

Right now, it seems our laws are catering to the CROOKS, not the victims. Oh, let them go about doing what they want, you change how YOU do things. Bullshit. If anything, I wouldn't mind stalking a neighbourhood with a butcher's knife tracking the fuckers down.

Remember, even attacking ONE of them is a dent. Every other person who isn't brain dead then starts wondering if they'll be stuck with a similar psychopath.

C: VIP Punishments

At some point, it should have been clearly stated that a leader serves those he leads. Not quite the other way around. Democracy, as it is also known. But since we're not going to hope everyone is equal, I think every form of punishment should be somehow augmented for anyone with a fancy name.

I mean, isn't that what we call justice?

D: Neutralities

I'm just sayin. Alot of people get their entire life views from newspapers. With that in mind, it's not fair of anyone to take advantage of the sheer power in a newspaper. In my ideal world, newspapers should be unbiased, as that's the whole point. To find out WHAT happened, not stories of the day-to-day activities of VIPs.

That's all I can think of for now. Too busy rehearsing executions in my head.

It's just how I roll

13/10/10

What up, people.

My trials are now OVER, which means that I'm at the last phase of my hill called the road to SPM.

Trials

Mid-term SPM

Various Intervensi FREEDOM, BITCHEZ

As shown in Diagram 1.

I've come to terms with the fact I don't have a date to prom, and I've decided I should just spend the last party with my classmates with my bros, and not anyone else.

You know, it's hard facing the fact everyone's leaving next year. I mean, Chang and Manisha, I'm sure we can catch up for coffee on weekends or something like that. But for Melor, Yan, well, that just makes me kinda tear. Never cry, though. thought you had me, eh?

Guess it's time to spend what time I have left, then :P

after all, it's not like I'm a stranger to being alone.

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Btw, this video could jolly well replace analgesics FOREVER.

Now, time to play some starcraft.

It's just how I roll