flip-side. 16th Oct

Wow. I really am a piece of work.
I seriously fuck everything up. Wether with my self-loathing, or insecurity. I mean, seriously. We're not even TOGETHER and I think she just dumped me. WTF?!

Seriously. All i've done, all i've EVER done, was support her with little alterior motive.
So maybe I took some things a little seriously. So what? One does not get backstabbed and think of sunshine and roses.

maybe this is me being told to stay the course. stick to the Plan.
Farah, when are you coming online?? D: I needz your warm bitch-slaps!

Battle for power status: Unknown

17th Oct

Woo!






So, today was fun. My geeky day-off, to just do random crap.






Went to Visa's for a Deepavali open house. Kick-ass time there. I tell you, Chun Ming really knows how to liven up a party!

Also, might I add the HOTNESS at the party. Seriously, never knew I'd meet a 7.5 there. So, after that totally random moment, we all walked in the rain to Bangsar Village to play cards.

Sure, I got trashed repeatedly, but hell, who gives a fuck?

So that's one random moment in the game.

DISCLAIMER: Geeky battle report following. Please avoid this section if thou hatest all geeks.

So, what you see is me against Chang, with Sableye and Budew as active. Honestly, this was going fuck slowly. My SF Sceptile was in the prizes (oh noez!) and my spare was replaced by my new GE Sceptile. Without energy mobility, I was lost.

After pissing off Chang by playing Shedinja SV, Chang started keeping Magneton handy for taking it out (with Magneton being the only powerless pokemon in play and all, he didn't have much of a choice. Expand or be picked off, simple as that)

However, after he was sure it would be gone, I brought out my Grovyle (no sceptile D:) and managed to score some KO's, like his Sableye and Electivire FB Lv X. (seriously, that was awesome shit. No damage counters involved. Pure ko-ing)

However, Dialga Lv X started pissing me off. Time skip is a pretty fucked up ability, making you gamble with a 25% chance of you getting fucked. Badly. By the time I brought Yanmega out, I scored a K-O on his Dialga Lv X (he wasn't keen on sending out Magnezone LvX, he was sure I had something mean up my sleeve)

Alas, I got trashed, with the final score 6-3. I think I came pretty close, don't you?

End disclaimer

Also, I FINALLY GOT TLR!!

Seriously, the movie wasn't as grand as I thought it'd be, but it was reasonably good. Special effects were good, but plot was relatively good. Still, Tuma had almost as little screentime as his Skrall :(

Alas, I couldn't help having a few dark thoughts. But I shall perish them, for now.

nyehehee.

Hi Hann!!

Amazingly Giddy.

Fuck this. This post doesn't even deserve a date.

Fuck you.
Fuck everyone around you.
Fuck anyone else who even starts sentences like you.

Hope; so fucking stupid.
So amazingly indescribably stupid, so amazingly indescribably dumb.
Should learn my lesson, just don't fucking care.

Ostracize myself, just be left fucking alone.
Nothing, no one. That way, no hopes to bring up.

No one to ruin you.
One bad thing is one thing, to have a series, a bad day, a bad YEAR, that just fucks everything from a-z.
Fuck this.

This post doesn't deserve a sign-off

12th Oct

Okay, kids! complete the phrase: "L-O-..."

did you answere "L-O-V-E"?
WRONG!
"L-O-A-T-H-E" is the answer!
Loathing for yourself,
loathing for that asshole bossing you around,
loathing for your com which keeps restarting,
loathing for everything around you.

In other news, It's over between them and things still don't look any brighter on my end. I've been called a testimony to patience, and lonely nad "oh shit!"

Seriously, retards, I can't believe I tried to impress you guys.

as for you,
my life's a freaking wreck.
I miss you.
I love you, I really, really do.
I'd create a parade in your honour if I could just to let you know, I really would.

Without you, nothing pleases me.
Not the hissing of the flame,
just you and I, maybe the Notre Dame,
To think you wouldn't return it,
it's like stabbing me over and over.

you.
The only one deserving of such verse,
I want the rush of your skin against mine
How our hearts would beat with speed together
How your scent is maddening.

Alas, reality sets in.
And you and I, forever and ever, are apart.





Losing the battle for power

11th October

You.
Every pounding, pulsating, unreciprocated moment,
every cold, dying second where I am not with you,
it tears me to bits.

You.
You are like the end of a good book, the Tin Man's heart!
You have inspired the strangest things in me!
and yet you insist that we go on, this tango in the moonlight,
Until even the most precise of clockwork is trivialed with inconsistencies.

You.
Against much better judgement, I play this game,
until all the cards are dealt, I dig my hole
you say there is no love felt, I disagree,
I am tired of repeating, I love you, can't you see?!

You; I chase you, against all better judgement,
to the end of a man's faith, till only I; solely,
To hope to hold you in my arms,
my angel; my only.

Losing the battle for power

7th Oct

Fuck this.
Why. Fucking why.
All I need to know.

I can't compete. I'm not mr sweet, romantic, I don't do anything that fangirls squeal about for weeks to come.

Fuck this, why won't I just flicker out of existence?

Losing the battle for power

6th Oct: whoop-de-doodly-fuckin-do

Okay, let's get this straight.
Yesterday=AWESOME
Today=SUCKAGE

So, she's found someone else. AGAIN.
Fuck, I swear at this rate, I'll be at this game of tag for an eternity.
Or worse, we'll get together 5 seconds before we have to break up cus we can't stand long distance.

But Hann, since you're reading this,
love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you love you.



Losing the battle for power