Screw this year.

Well, you've lasted a year

Shut up.

What?

Why do you taunt me?

Taunt you? I don't taunt you, you do this to yourself.

True. All the listening, naturally, it isn't the way to go. But it would fit perfectly with The Plan.

What's on your mind?

I dunno, it just sucks. I mean, I want to do it. I want to show her, I'm grown up, ready to take charge again. Problem is, i missed my train. She's gone.

But she's happy.

I know! thats what sucks. She's happy. I'm torn. I don't want to be selfish and tear her from being happy just for me to find out I don't really love her, but at the same time I do want her very very much.

You know, she might just be reading this, right?

Yeah, but screw it. I don't think it could possibly get much worse.

Okay, I lie. There is one worse thing

He could be the one to last

Dude, you're fucking messed up. Choose what you want to do. Take a side, shun the other side. STB won't work if you're still doing this.

I feel numb

Fighting the battle for power