Nov 25th

I just realised my date's keep changing the format of how I write them xP

In a more moderate and less-emo blog post, I had fun today. Watched 2012, (can't seem to get the sermons out of my head now, >.<)

Notes on people (yes, I'm a stalker. Bite me, assholes)

Subject A likes Subject B. Subject B is COMPLETELY oblivious (remind me to change that one day, need to give the subject a bloody whack in the noggin). But it's a 50-50 that Subject B likes Subject A's sister, Subject C.

Outcomes? Subjects A and C will not particularly like each other. If previous assumptions (not in above notes) are true, then catastrophe ensues.

Oh, how I love the smell of chaos brewing.

Losing the battle for power

Nov 24th

Looking back, it's been a helluva ride.
We've had our highs, our lows,
our insane highs, our depressing depths,
but it never mattered.

Us,
we were, we are a special brand.
We were, we are, two contrasting ends of the spectrum, but we fit perfectly together.
We don't see eye-to-eye always, but 99% is good enough, right?

Even from afar, people saw what deep, underlying thoughts lay,
even those completely unaware, eyeing cautiously.
You may not see it yet, and I still may be wrong,
but I'm pretty damn sure we're meant to be


Losing the battle for power

22/11

Ah, so I built myself a Skopio today. Took me 3 hours, 2 minutes and 22 seconds. Bear in mind, I did this all while watching Terminator 3: Rise of The Machines, The Sarah Connor Chronicles, The Amazing Race AND Supermodelme.

In other news, I has a maverick now.
:D

Losing the battle for power

19th Nov

I miss you.
Even if we weren't as 'elevated' (for want of a better term) as we were before, i just want to be with you.
You've obviously got better choices, so I see the futility of it now.

I hate being reminded.
It's like everyone is whispering, laughing
"He's alone. Look at him"
it's even worse to be told to the face, "She's much happier with me"

It's killing me from the inside out, did you know?

Losing the battle for power

Part 2, Self loathing

Things I learnt today:
I am never going to get anything done my way,
I am a failure.
Nothing I do will ever turn out right,
because I am a retard.
It is stupid to even try,
and I should be struck by lightning. At least that will be some form of highlight to my life.


Losing the battle for power

17/11

When will I learn to keep my mouth shut?
Fuck all this. Maybe I'm an accident on the face of this planet. Maybe I'm here simply to see how far I can be pressed.
The one good thing to happen in my life, and I fuck it up.
I feel like showering in kerosene and lighting a match.
That'll make EVERYONE happy, now wouldn't it?

Losing the battle for power

14th Nov

So, how many things can we say happened today?
They say everyone has their limits. I know mine now.

When you call a teacher a fucking retard for him to hear, it's kinda downhill from there.
But dammit, he deserved it. Completely. Hell, I should have just stood my ground. Dang containment measures.

Today was great though. Just spending time with her, it was awesome.
Even that half-second on the couch.
:)
Even the battle for power means nothing.

12/11/09

blammo, you're dead.
yay, my exams are over.
Seriously, time flies by really fast.

How we step up, assume power bestowed,
when only flashes ago were you looking to gain influence.
So quickly does the future bear down upon us,
and everything changes.

Losing the battle for power

10/11/9

Exams, how I loathe thee.
With all intensity and furiosity,
you make my mind twist and bend,
what the fuck, why can't you end?!

Losing the battle for power

6th November.

Okay, Exams have fucked me up badly. Seriously, I am failing all of them D:

To hold you close; the real dream,
Against all odds; all rules,
We'd be together; no matter the quo,
and that way we would last forever.

You,
Even the moon shines down with envy,
For only on her most glorious of nights,
Can she match a fraction of your beauty.

Spring wore a frown when I boasted thee,
Autumn itself, humbled,
corpses rose, and turned, and said;
'At least in my life, I have seen an angel'.

The flowers were shy to bloom once they had seen her,
even the Mona Lisa looked away,
afraid of being compared, condemned,
and afraid of being dropped for her.

And yet, I only stare at her, from my window,
but my heart beckons to her, and I shall wait for her response.

Losing the battle for power

1st Nov: Memorandum

It's been 2 years since the break-up that changed life itself.
In the interests of psychological development, let's see how much has changed.

2 years is a long time, particularly for me. I have never actually for any other since, other than the occasional good taco.
It still bugs me to be alone, even if I am now synonymous with the word 'patience'.

I've become slightly more daring in the mean time, and slightly less cool-headed.

either ways, happy anniversary Hann, glad to see one of us has improved in this time.

Losing the battle for power