20th January

"So how did you catch that jewel thief in the end?"
"Simple. we burned down the whole forest"
-Bruce and Alfred, The Dark Knight

Oh yeah, it's gonna bite me in the ass, I can tell.
Losing the battle for power

19th Jan

It seems so horrible, to be missing a piece.
It seems even worse, walking around, seeing nothing but god-damned-reminders everywhere you go.
In all seriousness, I need a hug.

In other news, since it's easier to find yourself when you set goals, here are mine:
1) I will inspire at least one person
2) I will fall in love
3) I will successfully get through my god-damned-exams
4) I will learn to fucking drive
5) At least one person will say 'it's not the same without Amirul' and mean it
6) I will make a difference
7) I Will Accomplish all goals by the end of the year
Losing the battle for power

18th Jan

hate it. Hate it. Hate it.
I hate that even my home isn't sanctuary
I hate the rippling loneliness, growing bigger with time.

I'm not good enough to be a person.
My presence is never celebrated,
Hell, I'm not even worth remembering.

I never am.
I never will be.

"I'm the invisible man, who can't stop staring at the mirror"
Losing the battle for power

16th Jan

To all people who answered my question below, thanks. To all people who are wondering what the fuck i'm talking about, it's in the post below.

Something I worked on in Cambodia:

Is it normal to miss you?
Because I do
I miss how your fingers gently danced upon mine,
and to everyone's protest; you would gently smile

Is it normal to want you?
Want you like I do
Wanting you until not even another's love could be returned
and all the daffodils sway in the midnight sun

Is it normal to love you?
To be entranced by your every moment
until all who wish it get a hollow shell,
and all who think they have it drown in doubt.

It's not normal; it's me.
And it's become so clear to see.
But I'll leave for now; and if I come back,
I'll be here always; and you'll see; we're meant to be



Losing the battle for power

When it comes down to the world, who am I?

I've heard the saying, "Just be who you are" and other phrases of the same meaning said alot recently.
to the reader: comment on this post. Answer me this vital question: who am I?

Losing the battle for power

16th Jan

Is it so wrong to actually give a fuck?
Yes, victory takes sacrifice. Yes, discipline is important.
But victory can be obtained and discipline can be maintained without being a harsh bully, thank you very much.
Take. A. Chill. Pill. Seriously, you told me you were against that kind of treatment. Well, when the eyes of the world probe you, I guess you really know how to show your true colours, eh, buddy boy?

And your 'help' is nothing more than a crack-pumped junkie trying to look like Rambo with love handles. If you want to waste what precious time you have letting a Biggest Loser drop-out
give 'pep-talks' that are basically half-hour swear sessions, then I think your leadership is seriously misplaced.

Too many cooks spoil the broth. And when 3 cooks can't decide on how to SPELL the freaking word, then you know something's up.

Teamwork, it's a new thing. try it.

On a final note: Stick to your word. If you promise people that you treat them nicely, stick to it. Karma's a dog, and I have a habit of letting it off the leash.

Losing the battle for power

14th Jan

Resonance: when two objects vibrate at the same frequency, causing the intensity of vibrations to get higher, and objects like mirrors to crack.

Seriously, it's maddening that way. I'll see what you make of that.



Losing the battle for power