3/7/11

Do you see me?

I doubt it

doubted it from the non-existant goodbye

Only the moon sees me on nights like this.

The frost rests nicely on my shoulders

For I look; I search; and there is no warmth

a lonely voice echoes against petrified trees;

the burden is mine to move on.

People are candles;

occasionally you see one flicker by;

you feel it's warmth; embrace it

and then gone. Snuffed out by the very cold it was to save you from.

I have my demons. I always will.

They talk of salvation, retribution and better days;

They talk and whisper; to no ends;

because nights like this; they are my only friends.

If you see me; stay away.

Unless I no longer need to learn to let go;

Unless I am allowed that warmth again;

Unless there is place for me.

There is no point; to weep or cry;

All it is; to say goodbye.

It's just how I roll

Transformers Rant

Y'know, I remember when I started out blogging, it was after watching transformers for the first time. my blog existed way back before that in this magical land called Xanga and I was an emo boy. I'd have kicked my own ass back then. Nostalgia :)

Now, I'm going to attempt my review at this. I wanted to do a video style, but I'm still nerdgasming from it. Hint of what's to come. Also, spoiler alert if you've accidentally stumbled across my blog.

It was good.

I'll admit, the soap opera dialogue was REALLY pissing me off and watching shockwave get mercilessly killed was a mixed basket but it was GOOD.

At first, I was prepared to hate the movie for it's inclusion of MORE annoying characters. The wreckers were, funnily enough, not that bad. MUCH better than Skids and Mudflap. And there was no attempt to make them human, at all. Unlike skids and mudflap, who I so gladly announce did not appear at all. I wanted shockwave ripping them to pieces, but hey, they're gone. That's what matters.

But you know what I liked about said annoying characters? they die. all of them. I'm not kidding you. I literally shit you not.

For once, the Decepticons aren't these poorly written serial villains. Soundwave (who actually DOES something, thank god) actually EXECUTES one of the motherfuckers WHILE HE'S BEGGING in front of the camera. Talk about dark man. and his head rolls in front of the camera too.

The plot itself was meh. It was a very basic plot "bad robots attack. Good robots save day" kinda thing. But the twist from Sentinel Prime was really good. And I'm not quite sure WHY they needed the humans, since the space bridge was so obviously fully functioning. I THINK it was to rebuild cybertron, but I'm not quite sure. Re-watch? :D

I think Shia La Beouf actually did a pretty good job here. I mean, I preferred him as a smartass, which he still retains slightly, but he's like this kid who saved the world twice, but has none of the perks. No parade or platypus statue. So it's understandable he's a little bitchy.

aand that was all I'll mention on the humans. Because the curse of transformers movies is a CRAP supporting cast. Always. The only supporting cast I ever liked was Sam's stoner buddy in the first movie, because quite frankly he did nothing whatsoever. Leo and virtually everyone in this movie is just obnoxious and obscene . But the soldiers are awesome. Okay, that's it.

On to the robots. I LOVED them. Seriously. Eziotron (my new name for megatron) was awesome. His face is still totaled from ROTF (yay continuity!) and he now carries a shotgun. Yes, he found spare parts to build himself a SHOTGUN but not a new face. Apparently, we're taught here that Sam's new girlfriend is so hot even Eziotron is lured in.

I dunno, but the decepticons just feel more... Evil this time round. In Transformers 1 they were scary, but not that dangerous. In 2 they were just annoying. 3 got them this really dark feel. They destroy the autobot ship while it's leaving, they have an assassin killing off all their used spies (not eziotron) and as mentioned above, they execute their prisoners. Mention worthy: Starscream screams like Cow of Cow And Chicken before dying, since they share a voice actor.

I'm a little down shockwave does virtually nothing, he's just this hobo living in Russia who prime REALLY hates.

The new autobots were so so. Poor ratchet is denied ANY character at all this time, and I quite like that. I dunno, but they somehow made Ironhide's death a little muted but still pretty sad.

But generally, you're here for 3 main robots: Sentinel, Optimus and Megatron. Even Bee isn't really that important here, which is good. TBH, didn't really like him.

The decepticons were dark, oh yes but Prime is just a badass. a dark, gruesome badass. Apparently, his trailer is this giant weapons cache for more weapons than the Doom Guy and Duke Nukem put together. I'm not kidding. In fact, I think he uses a pair of Devestators from Duke Nukem Forever for a while. In ROTF he was violent, but without really much reason. It's just assumed he's a badass. But here, you really feel frustration out of him. But his final fight with Megatron coulda been SO MUCH MORE.

I can't think of what else to write, so I'm gonna stop here. In short, it's still short of Transformers 1, but more to ROTF done RIGHT. I'm so glad they killed off Wheelie, as well as FINALLY telling me where Barricade's been without resorting to "AHAHAHAHA PRIME I AM BACK, YOUR ARCH NEMESIS BARRICADE!". It's not what I'd call a deep exploration of the human (or robot) condition, but if you're here for a good time, then it packs a little more than that.

Also, Digital Animation or Bust.

It's just how I roll

30/6/11

I feel like ranting. I can't pick a victim, so I'll wing this one.

Whiny couples, they piss me off. I mean, really. Really. REALLY.

"Boo-hoo, bad day. my life's a wreck. The worse bit is, I have to go home and talk to someone that will make it all better. FML. When will oprah answer my fucking call?"

Seriously. You got something, use it. Fucking idiots. I get the temporary feeling of despair, I guess, but I hate those people who are always trying to justify that they're not having as good a time as they fucking show. "oh, he's not THAT great, I mean he's always..." fuck you. If you didn't like the douche you'd be like me writing angry posts no one reads.

And I hate stupid ticketing systems. I went to buy tickets for transformers this weekend, and I wanted an 8.00pm show. So the guy clicks it and suddenly the machine goes "JK, COCK BICYCLE, I SOLD THE LAST TICKETS BITCH!"

I know it's not the guy's fault, but would it kill anyone to design a smoother system that doesn't taunt you about it?

I mean, COME ON, PEOPLE. WE'RE THE HUMAN FUCKING RACE. WE BUILT A GIANT SPACE STATION ABOVE THE EARTH AND FLEW TO THE MOON! and you're telling me you can't make a smoother fucking ticketing system?

Also, new couple syndrome. that whole "Smother my gushiness in 50 faces and get a fucking achievement!" really pisses me off. I feel so whiny repeating this, but if you're so fucking in love, shouldn't you be focused ON EACH OTHER and not bothering the rest of us with it?

And let's move on to the fucking drama queens of the world, shall we? Unless I invoke the wrath of... YOUR FIERY VENGEANCE THAT WILL COME DOWN ON ME SWIFTLY AND BOLDLY. Seriously? You can take that to Bold and The Beautiful. They could use better script writers, anyways. But excess drama in your sentences does not make you smart, it just kinda makes you a douche. And coming from the motherfucking king of douches, that's saying something.

As you can see, I still need to focus my thoughts to rant properly. I'll give it time.

It's just how I roll

28/6/11

I'm not sure what to write. I hate being sick. that's a fo shizzle. I hate being shut up, definitely. But it's a must this time round. I like being a Pyro in TF2.

Still very much alone. This round it can't be helped, I really just haven't had the time to put effort into something that's always turning up fruitless. For now. I'll be back soon.

Transformers 3 comes out soon. Can't believe it's been 5 years already.

It's just how I roll

25/6/11

lol, tired from a long day with chang and dush. We hung out at the curve, played a LOT of games and generally just hung out like old times.

I need to play this well, hardcore all my projects and still not turn into a soulless robot. Need to make room to destress.

Also, itinerary for tomorrow: Driving, haircut, work/downloading TF2.

It's just how I roll

20/6/11

The dates have seemed... funny. /shrugs

Anywhoo, I'm here to just touch on something that's come to my attention.

Romance tends to fuck up friendships. I mean seriously.

I don't think I should rant any further, partially cus I have perspex to clean, and partially because my mouth seems to be getting me into extra shit lately.

Also, my big plan to go to hartamas and watch the whole fashion monstrosity has crashed and burned. And you know what?

I'm not mad. I think God is finally throwing me the bone I so rightly deserve.

Let's face it. Ash might ACTUALLY kill me. If you're reading this, NO. that WASN'T my plan. TBH, I just get a little stir crazy and thought I could break the cycle and just get out and do something different. therefore, there. Besides, I made a promise. And though the world sucks at keeping it's own, I will keep to mine and not bother her. fuck it, if she wants me she can come find me. in person.

I'm not sure, but my little experiment with alice may be over too. Guess it's back to just wandering around again. Should be fun, no pining over someone or anything. Just kicking ass and being a dick. And then being amazed as fuck once someone finds that attractive. or even better, sees that soft mushy side of me I'll probably rarely let out now that there's no one to open up to.

Okay, there is perspex to clean and sleep to be had. Hopefully, life looks up for me tomorrow. I'd hate to smash more things.

It's just how I roll

19/6/11

so, I can't decide wether to rant or not. I need the hate in my system, fo shizzle. but wether I still have what it takes to focus it into a rant or not is a different question.

I think the world needs a little perspective. Because often enough, sometimes people ask for really stupid things. I don't mean the material kind, because I am a firm believer in retail therapy. FEED THE WORLD!

But back in line. I'm not going to take the high road and act like I'm not guilty of this. Perhaps I need a little perspective too. But sometimes, people really, and I mean REALLY just don't make sense.

Let's take for starters, another random case of people pissin' me off with their stupid drama life. Occasionally, drama is good, but this is just plain STUPID. You wanna spend your birthday being all gushy with your boyfriend, I get it. Totally makes sense. But last minute, he has something to do and goes off. Okay. You're sad, I get that.

"You know who I blame? thanks, family, for not being there"

wait. WHAT?!

I'm sorry, I didn't quite catch that. so it's THEIR fault that you're a whiny co-dependent person? I'll probably get a LOT of flak for this, but seriously. This is beyond retarded.

I know I bitch a lot about being alone, but this REALLY isn't what I hope to find. This clingyness that just turns sour into poor unreasonability. I mean seriously, relationships can really fuck some people up. Brings out some ugly sides of them.

Sometimes, I wanna experiment on these people. See if they ACTUALLY die due to excess separation. I guess not everyone can get thrown on their ass as much as me that they become virtually heartless, since I obviously am the only person seemingly bothered that there are spineless twits afoot.

That aside, all these people expecting me to be so horribly... not me. I know expecting better of someone is one thing, I do that a lot. But there are some things that just have no benefit in changing. Allow me to elaborate.

I can come off as creepy sometimes. maybe it's the monotone voice. maybe it's the way I say some things and maybe it's the unholy bastard child of the 2 mixed with my inappropriate choice of conversation topics. And you know what? some people, who even though think of me that way, are cool with that. I don't know how, but I still get told off for trying to change who I am. I DON'T hate that.

Back to my point. If someone already knows me as hannibal lecter minus gigantic brain and taste for liver, who am I to bother trying to change their perception? I mean seriously, a first impression lasts forever. I can occasionally be nicer, but let's face it: I am who I am. Geek, cynic, closet romantic. I will occasionally state my opinion at bad times, I'll hold grudges against people who fuck up.

my rants are still fucked up. I can't think of anything new to bitch about, since I've covered what I already hate.

It's just how I roll